Wait

Psalm 40:1
I waited patiently for the LORD; he turned to me and heard my cry.

To wait: one of the most difficult concepts to surrender to. 

To wait for something of deep value can be excutiating  whether it waiting for a job, for health, for a wayward child to repent, for a spouse or for a child of your own.  Yet there is something of sweetness and deep, abiding value in the wait that often becomes apparent only in hindsight! 

Our youngest daughter Alisa and her husband Peter have been “in wait” for a sibling for Hadassah for two years.  At times this period has felt like “forever” but the wait has finally come to an end with the arrival of Asa Peter.  In hindsight,  there is no doubt that God orchestrated the events and timing for this tiny baby boy to become a part of our family.  We are already blessed by his sweet, peaceful temperament even in the midst of his discomfort and pain.  He came into this world one week ago faced with a medical condition call gastoschisis and faces surgery at 8 AM this morning.  Because the hole in his tiny tummy is rather large, he will not be able to eat via his mouth for several weeks and will therefore remain in NICU for quite some time.  We look forward to the time when we can hold Asa Peter in our arms.

Go to Christian Mama’s Guide for pictures and a snippet of his story via a letter written by Asa’s aunt to his birth mother. 

I am a grateful “Oma” today.

I thank God today for medical advances in our country by which babies like Asa can be restored to full health.  I thank God for the Ronald McDonald House in Temple  where the staff has graciously opened up their dwelling for our family. (we will forever be loyal fans!) I thank God for the Generations Adoption Agency in Waco who compassionately work with birth moms and adoptive families waiting for babies.  I thank God for birth moms who couragously hand their children over in hopes of a better life for the child they carried. 

Our lives are forever changed in this process.  Adoption,a child in NICU, being served by the Ronald McDonald House:  these are all new experiences for our family that we know God will use to enrich our lives.  For Peter and Alisa, the wait in hindsight has now become a sweet blessing. 

Do you find yourself waiting for something deeply important to you?  I pray this poem encourages you as it did our family a few month back.

A portion of the poem “Wait” by Ginger Garrett

as written in Hannah’s Hope: Seeking God’s Heart in the Midst of Infertility, Miscarriage & Adoption Loss by Jennifer Saake.

“…..all you see I could give, and pleased you would be.

You would have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.

You’d not know the depth of My love for each saint;

You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.

You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;

You’d not learn to trust, just by knowing I’m there.

You’d not know the joy of resting in Me.

When darkness and silence was all you could see.

You would never experience that fullness of love.

As peace of My Spirit descends like a dove.

You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,

But you’d not know the depth of the best of My heart.

The glow of My comfort late in the night;

The faith that I give when you walk without sight;

The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask,

From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

And you never would know, should your pain quickly flee,

What it means that ‘My grace is sufficient for thee.’

Yes, your dreams for that loved one o’ernight could come true,

But the loss if you lost what I’m doing in you.

So be silent, my child, and in time you will see;

That the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me,

And though oft’ may My answers seem terribly late,

My most precious answer of all….is still…..wait.”

6 Comments

  1. So happy for peter & alisa! Keeping the whole family in my thought and prayers <3

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  2. Congratulations Glen and Ellen! What a blessing.

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  3. Oma Ellen, I am in prayer for little Asa and will look forward to seeing God’s miracles in his life. This poem is very appropriate and meaningful since the motorhome still hasn’t sold, our savings is now gone, no jobs offered (instead I am little Mac’s full time daycare). Psalm 37:7 Looking forward to His answers, yet practicing faith and restful waiting.

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    • Wow- I have wondered often how you are doing. Would love to get together again when time allows!

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  4. Beautiful! You know, the longer we wait, while seeking the Lord, the more patience God give to us. I have heard that, if you feel you lack patience, do things like getting in the LONGEST LINE in the grocery store, and PRAY. But how do we grow in thankfulness in waiting for the big things of life? Enduring a chronic and painful illness, since my teens has caused me to seek the heart of God and WAIT in hope for Him. No matter what we do not have; we ALWAYS have more. Expressing gratefulness for God’s goodness is the best gift of all.

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    • Amen Diana! I marvel at your patience and admire you deeply for your resilience!

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