Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
We have a new granddaughter – Alma Lynn Dusan.
She joins an active bunch of cousins and siblings – the 4th under the age of two. The name Alma is of Spanish origin meaning “soul.” It is also of Latin origin, where it means “nourishing.” Alma is soul-nourishment, born less than a year after a very parched season for Peter and Alisa.
Less than a year ago, Peter and Alisa tearfully knelt before God one evening at church to abandon their dreams of more children – to surrender their lives to God regardless of what would or would not happen. After trying to get pregnant for months while friends and sisters got pregnant with ease; after learning of their diagnosis of infertility – that even Hadassah had been a miracle conception; after experiencing an adoption-about-to-happen-only to-suddenly-end; they had grown weary from disappointment. Worn out and feeling rather hopeless, they purposed to grow content with what they had and who they were come what may. They chose sweet surrender – to live not with longing eyes upon what they did not have or with discouragement over who they were – an infertile couple with a desire to have a large family– but in sincerity of faith choosing to believe that God in His loving kindness would care for them and meet their heart needs according to His abundant love.
They chose to accept what was NOT so that they could be grateful for what was and would be – finding OKness EVEN IF Hadassah would remain their only child. No more what ifs. No more if onlys. It was now EVEN IF.
Two days later, the phone call came – news of a baby boy that could be theirs if they wanted. There was a catch though- the tiny infant was in NICU with a serious medical condition. The stay could be long. The cost high. No guarantees. Except he could be theirs if they simply said “yes.”
And that is what they heard God tell them to do – Say YES. EVEN IF.
This little boy is Asa today- smiling, content, healthy, happy Asa. Yesterday at less than a year old, and still very tiny in size, he became a big brother. It’s amazing what can happen in just one year!
Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. Philippians 4:11
“But the value of gratitude does not consist solely in getting you more blessings in the future. Without gratitude you cannot long keep from dissatisfied thought regarding things as they are.” — Wallace Wattles
“Both abundance and lack exist simultaneously in our lives, as parallel realities. It is always our conscious choice which secret garden we will tend… when we choose not to focus on what is missing from our lives but are grateful for the abundance that’s present — love, health, family, friends, work, the joys of nature and personal pursuits that bring us pleasure — the wasteland of illusion falls away and we experience Heaven on earth.” –Sarah Ban Breathnach